I felt I needed to put a few of my personal beliefs
and thoughts out into the atmosphere
as I continue to let this go.
Miscarriage....
It's hard to understand if you've never gone through it.
But I realized it's just as hard to understand,
when you're actually going through it.
Hurt, sadness, confusion, disappointment
and a million other emotions flood in all at once
and there's not a dam big enough to hold them back.
I am certain everyone deals with this kind of hardship differently,
and like any type of mourning,
there is no right or wrong way to act or feel.
I shed a lot of tears and said a lot of prayers.
I'm thankful for every hug, empathetic word,
and prayers from my friends and family.
I felt so much compassion and love,
I can only hope to repay it somehow, someday.
Through this process,
I've tried to focus on my many blessings.
I know I must experience trials and difficulties,
so I can more fully enjoy the countless bright spots in my life.
"A smooth sea, never made a skillful sailor"
I could not imagine trudging along this trying path without my faith.
Without this hope for things unseen,
I would have lost my way many hardships ago.
Another thing I am grateful for in times of adversity
is my eternal perspective.
I know this life here on earth is short,
and any pain or sorrow I experience here is temporary.
This understanding does not immediately diminish the suffering,
but it always brightens the light at the end of the tunnel.
I know my family is sealed together and will be forever.
This knowledge gives me peace and happiness which nothing can take away.
So, I deal with this heartache, as I look to that which gives me comfort...
This thought always does:
My Heavenly Father knows me, He loves me
and He will bless me with what I need, when I need it.
-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf
