Miscarriage: a few thoughts...

 I felt I needed to put a few of my personal beliefs

and thoughts out into the atmosphere 

as I continue to let this go.

Miscarriage....

It's hard to understand if you've never gone through it.

But I realized it's just as hard to understand,

when you're actually going through it.

Hurt, sadness, confusion, disappointment 

and a million other emotions flood in all at once

and there's not a dam big enough to hold them back.

I am certain everyone deals with this kind of hardship differently,

and like any type of mourning, 

there is no right or wrong way to act or feel.

I shed a lot of tears and said a lot of prayers.

I'm thankful for every hug, empathetic word,

and prayers from my friends and family.

I felt so much compassion and love, 

I can only hope to repay it somehow, someday.

Through this process,

I've tried to focus on my many blessings.

I know I must experience trials and difficulties, 

so I can more fully enjoy the countless bright spots in my life.

"A smooth sea, never made a skillful sailor"

I could not imagine trudging along this trying path without my faith.

Without this hope for things unseen,

I would have lost my way many hardships ago.

Another thing I am grateful for in times of adversity

is my eternal perspective.

I know this life here on earth is short, 

and any pain or sorrow I experience here is temporary.

This understanding does not immediately diminish the suffering,

but it always brightens the light at the end of the tunnel.

I know my family is sealed together and will be forever.  

This knowledge gives me peace and happiness which nothing can take away.

So, I deal with this heartache, as I look to that which gives me comfort...

This thought always does:

My Heavenly Father knows me, He loves me 

and He will bless me with what I need, when I need it.

-President Dieter F. Uchtdorf